So here’s a question:

How much does any form of, uh, “identity-change euphoria” boil down to the joy of “I asked a bunch of people to do a weird thing for my sake and they actually did it instead of laughing at me or ignoring me?”  How much does it boil down to the joy of “turns out that I am actually capable of wreaking noticeable large-scale changes in my own life?” 

…I can theorize and speculate, but there’s a lot of relevant introspective knowledge here to which I have no access.